I lie about everything. 

I'd rather lie on a floor 12 hours a day .

Days

    I feel so much something...

My mom drove us to HEB about 8 15.

It's almost a dream.

Patrick, ivy and Bridgit will come here today. Maybe fireworks we shall see.

I think about dying.

My mother just bought 6 Shipley do-nuts.

The dog door is closed. 

Hank is on his chair, looking at me.

My mom is talking about the tennis on the TV.

The morning summer light. I mean a summer morning light.

Like being high

More lighk a movie

I can and do everything 

Trees

Deaths

Maybe wake up

Have the coffee

I like Him

And her .

Bye

(:

PS

It is a holiday. 

I am kind of excited for them to come here.

I am glad no one else is coming.

I am anxious for Marshall, a fifteen-year-old neighbor, to get here and mow grass.

I am also excited for them to leave here.

I try to put no effort into Anything...

Reminds me of Rob, Maximum Effort.

I tell my self i really do not care.

We all die soon

I love all these things and People

Beautiful

Intense

Miracle

Free Willy

- - - -

I love having 3 days of almost nothing to do.

I need to win the Powerball tonight.

I'll set a timer to watch the drawing.

I was gonna type something else.

I will watch silly star asmr now.

Long babies

Pps . 11 35

Marshall is almost done, he'll weedeat in bit.

I was checking instagram.com a lot, waiting for Ashley to reply about the water melon festival. 

I am anxious about being with both her and Aaron together. 

Mostly about Aaron's judgment and correctness. 

I felt and feel like i am someone else, howsome

Loss of control and consciousness 

Ether, nobody, God's Mind

I took a lil bite of weed chocolate. 

I will eat the rest about 4 30. So i can take a high walk at dawn.

I drank sleep aid this morning. I had 2 cups of half caff.

I could drive off a cliff. I want it to be high enough to die.

I imagine being tied to a rocket flying to outer space and blowing up

The End

11 42 , 4-7-2026

Gregory wredberg 

Last Time,

11 54

Marshall is about done weed eating.

My mother is talking with he

When he leave, I am going to pee outsde, on the south of this house, in the foundation support pipe i put 2 rocks on ....

Then leaf blow the grass off the deck.

-

I used a rake to clear off the graves of our cats.

See ya. < 33

I want to live on Australia for a year and Japan 3 to 6 months. December to June maybe

Canada a bit, east to west, and Alaska.

And Russia

Maybe Hawaii 

Most of all China

16 16

 It is July 3rd. 3,23 pm.   Or 15 24

I should text Aaron in about an hour.

I imagined going to the McDade watermelon fest with him and Ashley.

I don't know what I should say. I'm always nervous with Aaron. Ashley being there could make me more... So driving, exiting east 71, to North 95 , I thought,

I will not think. I will be moving water.

    Sounds like I will move water, but it's what I am.

I feel slow and heavy.

I drank sleep aid..

I drank coffee.

I don't want to finish this cup.

I think about lying on my bed.

I should pee now, maybe poop.

I wonder what we will eat. Leftovers I believe.

I guess having family over tomorrow will be good.

Marshall will mow again.

I will finish the white wine tonight.

I will lie horizontally in a minute.

Thaanks.

-

It's later.

16 10

I won't watch bad stuff anymore. 

I don't know how. I just won't. 

If i have a good idea, I'll do that. 

Green waffle. Happy demon, killjoy

At 5 i ate and prepared for work.

I left before 6 and didn't see traffic.

I went to the del valle metro park.

It's one of my favorite places.

Sunrises

. .

Tim was earlier than me.

In a sink.

Green toast.

Can't wait to walk at dusk.

I feel slleepy .

Can't wait to win the lotto again tonight and tomorrow. I hope.

Just hope.

By bye, Love.

Til nextime

K Diary

 Don't want to play games or stay in bed.

Want to travel Earth and hike thru cities mountains and rivers.

   Build good hospitals and healthy homes

Everything is okay  when i cannot stand. 

Do Nothing 

Have Nothing

Be Nothing

Say Nothing 

To Lying  🧉 

Lying to Me

I will sleep.   i will Sleep

I am drinking coffee and Bailey's

I drank some white wine from the bottle, hoping my mother didn't hear

Igot in the hot tub , it feltreally hot

I felt good from alcohol. 

I felt manic / obsessive  from everything 

I thought of all these words i could type

Yesterday i took 840 mg of thc at once, as soon as i left Aaron's. I was really nervous to see him, because I never know what I should say. I guess it went fine. 

I never understand time. Why continue to live or do or be anything? Everything that exists, always exists. Is anything enough?

Then i  was home alone

It was okay

For hours

I fell asleep 

my mom called at 6 to say they were done vintage table shopping and she was coming home

We ate jalapeño macaroni and cheese. 

We watched 33 minutes of Brokenwood series 12 episode 6 , the lastest. It's about a mysterious dead old man eater  mother. Frodo is dating her daughter, she runs ultra marathons 

This week i thought that words don't mean much to me.

I need to plan lives, or just my own

I need to tell myself what to do and how and why

My mother and I are watching Cbs Sunday morning show

And switching to the men's final game of the French open.

I thought, i need to watch you tube ,

I seem lonely

I like how my mind doesn't work .  I don't work .

I like this house. Stuff

I walk 

With my hand

I do things

Touch

Feel

Allow

Fall

Dance Think , wander ,  sing ,  wear clothes ,  change ,  drink ,  eat ,  see ,  wash pee poop ,  talk  ,  be anyone ,  go everywhere ,  exist always

I do whatever

I care when

-

I am also other people

I am also Rock Climbing 

They are also Christ in the wild

He is me going to Walmart 

They are washers and small fishes

I am again a radio and forecasts for Climates and Feeling and stuff

You are also Big Trees and small city blues and Tastes of Allgood People

At the End,

Bye

With you.

Later Love 

I took 2 Nyquil pills

Feel like drunk and sleepy, loopy

Like I don't care.

I'm drinking more wine, in a floral green glass.

I just live with my Mom.

How do I know what to do next?

What step is 1st ?

You?

This feels cool.

What?

i guess the totality of the mass ,  the weight of feeling

- We watched Tom Davies and his brother ben in Machester No Roads episode 2

I watched the latest Office Hours with Tim Heidecker .

I'm finishing Geekenders 

I think my mom wants to get little Caesar's today 

I want to sleep.

I am waiting for ups or fedex to deliver, for my mom.

I want to watch Humans with Hank, the first one with John

Okay

I will

. . . .

I hope i find i have cancer this year. That would be a relief, for me, for a lot of reasons .

Instead 1st, i am finishing ask hank anything , blaire qt.

Then humans

    Dearest God,

Is your middle name Superlative? Haha, just kidding (Jesusing) . I love You,  God.

Sincerely, 

Gregory Wredberg 

PS

What is Perfect Truth?

Sincere question 

Thanks in Advance,  God. (; <3 ! ⚡️

I must thank God, the father, the son jesus, and the Holy Ghost,

Thank the earth for these conditions, plants with thc,

The people who studied and made gummies and sold em,

And thank myself for buying and eating and getting high on these.

I was something. 

I thought I was

I dunno if i know 

I should be a good doctors. 

I should Invent good medicines. 

I should make good houses for people to have a good basis for a good life

I

O

Kay.

C ya

Love you

I can do anything because I am my own best friend.

.

Yellow Wall and House Plant

Plan

 

1. Study electricity
2. Buy healthy balanced food, eat it
3. Exercise
4. Talk and listen, learn
5. Fix and clean, organize
6. Invest money
7. Buy or build home
8. Marry
9. Adopt
10. Teach
11. Write

0. Read

Begin at 8 a.m. 

 

Foodexercise

Point eyes at book page, move from top down, left to right, turn page. Think about it.

Write more.

Push ups, plank, yoga, ride bike

Eggs

Vegetables

Here and now I go again.

I've been doing a few little things. 

What can I do or say to make anything better ?

I will verb adjective nouns.

I drank 3 cayman jacks, in the past 2 hours.

I was gonna say I'm glad Tim canceled work. But i was only glad this morning. I am relieved that I have nothing to do tomorrow. But I hope tim feels better.

I keep wondering what is wrong with me. I wonder if I will marry someone. I wonder if I will make sense. Will we live a good life eventually?

Where and how would we meet. What would I do to become an acceptable husband 

The alcohol feels pretty good...

I keep thinking of people i like. Like young women, or older. The world wide web, asmrtists...  something nothing    ...

Jen's facebook bios are really good. It was , Truth is my lover . Now it's Truth is my god. 

I don't really agree with something about the 'my god' part. I guess God is just everything. O ya, they are just all the good.

Anyway, maybe we are good enough for now

And

I almost always think i need to hear and or see someone on a screen, online , like i never want silence or my own thoughts .

It's final Jeopardy. ⁰

Writers in Residence

I am eating kimchi and a bell pepper filled with rice tomato corn onion and cheese.

We are about to watch Dark Winds season 4 episode 7.

I hope enough rain falls, on us, everybody.

We forgive all, back flips, shoulder scrolls

I just need perfect posture, less fat, better muscles. 

I need the healthy routine

Postive Slopes

Art 

school

.

I finished my thc gummies last night. 

I will wait a while. But hopefully I will rarely take any ever again.

Thrival

Let's get good.

Hopefully

Thankfully

-

I hope I do a lot of math and science. Learn many languages. 

Listen and talk with people, understand. ...

My mother and I will probably get a rain barrel soon.

 

Monday

 I just had a panic attack . It is almost 13 o clock.

We just got home from buying a few things

and I had an appointment at the airport

  to get a new Global Entry card .

That all went well , except we got tacos at jack in the box .

I panicked because  I keep thinking of Jen ...  

I feel too weird .   I should stay in control of my thoughts and feelings ...

I hope We can be okay 

Now and consistently 

For all times   - -

.. jennifer , jenzyme , adaptojen

   - -   And get stronger

And more hopeful

And Love ,   learning all the meanings of Love and what we need to do to make it last and help our friends become better and live better

infinite i guess

I want to fix our Minds and the Past and the Future

All the things and thoughts   that i should have thought about ... done better ..

Think better

Think and try to do and say only good things , true , helpful ..

Fixing  ..  everything .

I didn't sleep much .... i got extremely high last night and masturbated. 

I think I am full of regrets and confusion .

I got too frustrated ,  trying to do and think simple things ..

Yesterday Aaron , Andee and i ate and walked .  I tried to explain  that Jen and I had difficult talks then we said goodbye.

What .. is ...

....

Honest ...  

Buying groceries. Cooking meals .  Cleaning everything  . 

Driving you to a hospital ,  giving u medical attention 

Staring at u . Making u smile or laugh

Trusting.

We are math equations 

i can know everything ,  or enough

what to do

Begin and complete    []:

My heart is insane 

My life is A music and movie

             Go to a place

Roads

Walls , Roofs

Electricity

Sun lights 

Humans with jobs

Protecting 

Serving

Following orders

Invent the world  saving objects ,  facts ,  fingers making tools

innovate .. Human grade ,  quality of life improvements

I should live for ever

I should always say ,  i love you

I should mean Everythiing 

Can you help  me ?   Is something really wrong with me ?

What can i do to help  us?

I built a perfect city

We became a perfect earth

Why can i always be real , or something 

K

Is this Rainbow ?

Is always Now?

Will u be okay ?

Hope so ,

Talk with u soon . . .

- Gregory wredberg 

To Asiia, 

Are you doing good? I was feeling really bad about my last relationship and breakup. So much is difficult to understand. .. so a bit lonely i think [: but doing okay most of the time. Thank you so much for listening and being here. Wanna hug u so much , ha 😂 

I didn't get any good sleep, so i feel too weird [:

-

Hmm.

I should sleep.

 

https://gregorywlogs.blogspot.com/2026/03/blog-post_16.html?m=1

   should just eat well and exercise

3 - 11 - 26

 Wow , I am going to spend two nights at tim's tomorrow and tonight , it's allright 

It's hard for me to believe how depressed and\or Lestragic ( ha, i thot it said Lethargic) , apathetic i have been ... just sad maybe, because I haven't been working and I have been taking a lot of Drugs and alcohol and feeling bad , like tired. But mostly, just like, not much will to live or to live ... Well . I was wondering how bad i could get ... if I would actually be suicidal or catatonic maybe

[ I eat badly , almost always , i seem like i don't care .. i don't know, at this moment. It is 5 13 friday march 13. I woke too early, took too many anti anxiety pills .    O well, i wonder what today will be   ?

" ]

But don't worry about it

We all are saved , somehow 

We do things , or we don't 

Nice to have work tomorrow 

Tim will drive 

It is easy for me

Maybe i  finally kinda understand why some people feel so hopeless and bad when they dont have work , job , occupation , creative outlet , focus .

Maybe i was seasonally affected by all the clouds and less Sun

I stayed in bed too long, too many mornings 

[:

I started talking with jen acouple weeks ago

There is ... everyone 

I do not know .

I think I'll lie in bed when my mom gets here

I drank irish cream .

J

I wonder what hell and heaven are

Where am i ? What will i do ? I know something .

I will be more specific 

Next time

.

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She always wakes at 5 to feed children then clean big rooms in big buildings, to the west.

She is 50.

Imagine all these people doing all these things in places .

I'm a Tractor. I'm a face full of people

Once I knew a tree bark man peel off the Lie of the Past

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This is Good.

I have done everything i can do.

I am done with Earth, and Space, and Time.

Talk with You soon

Can i talk like you ?

Can i think like me ?

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                 Missing Work

It means Both. He means to be better. Do better. At it. Be productive. Assault your senses.

   All Three.

Aaron is efficient. He eats exactly the calories he burns, through out a week. I want to weigh under 170. I want to be less jiggly. Sometimes I appreciate jiggly.

you   ( that is a typo )

.. I was watching Ask Hank Anything .

Long episodes

We must make things In the best way possible

Food and health will be easier, better, because we have thought about exactly how we should live .. and I remember thinking once , what should I think ? What are the best Thoughts and ways to

Think ?

Can I do anything?

I like to feel high on THC so much, sometimes I think alcohol sounds good, but much better is black coffee . . .

This habit will definitely make me worse . .. Not good for any one .

I dunno what I will do

Maybe a couple ..

I read these ,

I can relate. I do not have many friends either. I mostly spend my time studying, praying and going to the gym. Sometimes it feels peaceful sometimes lonely. u are in a rebuilding phase that takes time

1 ,i , am standing at this ping pong table , tablet On a swivel chair , hand writing this . . . .

  i wonder what I will eat

Jesus my mind.

.

"

The end

here now , hey , they

 Why do i want to kill some one ?

I could sleep now . 

My brain seems a bit dead

I am watching Hank Green and Nilay Patel on Decoder, a podcast 

I'm eating jalapeño ranch tortilla chips 

I flaked on my best friends this morning, we were going to Liturgy at St Elias . I wanted to stay in or near my bed . I flake on God .

I am leaning on my body

I am a fall on the left on missions from God and evil men

Why do we want to sleep ?

How do we humans use hands, feet and machines to heal Earth and the Future 

Wear shoes and eyeglasses and pants, going to Money and Africa and Love and China

The End

I eat a lot of thc

.

I'll talk with you again , thank you .

Hi

"  That's between you and Barn jesus

  I'm not nitpicking what you do with Barns in your own home

Barn shaming ?!  On a Sunday !

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- i will always find a way .

Oh Lord

oh Lord , I love You.

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I am made of Time and god particles

.

Today is messy

Tomorrow  may be messier

 Life is so confusing 

Why can we live together

?

I'm waiting for

Waiting 

Doing

Living

 Gonna make a quesadilla

Quesadilla for the People.

 I like to box with rain will sun

Like to fly with Hajibi habiji 

The boy stabs pineapple juice .

Words Ass

 Christ 

Following

Breakfast

Tinsel 

Divide

Frogs

Enormous 

Nobody

Fuckjob

Hello

Growthspurt

Greengarden

Lollipope

Imbecile 

Varicose 

Moneypit

Alabama

Jizzle

Kangaroo 

Laugh emoji

Melanin 

Questing

Popularity 

Nuclear 

Ick

Onion

Interrogate 

Abolition 

Penis

Absolution 

Quince

Yodel

Recycle 

Dandelion 

Sobering

Kismet

Tangential 

Wind

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Vulva 

Tackle

Washington

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Incandescent

X finity

Flower

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Benign

Zombies

Allright

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Wallabee forecast impetus Heroics gamble frog

Egregious dialectical cultivation of black Ambitions . . . .

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When I only sleep half as much as I should sleep.

Four 2 days in a row, nights

I feel like I'm half awake and half dreaming.

I feeloopy , spacey , less inhabited , a little like being drunk.

I wrote my bike to ,tell , the street and back in thirty seconds.

Amusing voice to text , so it's messed up.

  I'm using...

My mom is napping or reading.

I put the winter Olympics on the t.V at low volume.

Pets are usually annoying.

I love watching Brookthorn , Dodger , Dexbonus on youtube.

It's been some kind of day . I took a walk with aaron , but I didn't have much to say .

I'm so glad I got to see Andee .

I am looking forward to sleeping tonight , but not to going to work tomorrow morning.

Oh, where will I be? How will I be?

Hal willoughby

We've got some interesting food to eat .

I want to make things right, I thought while I rinsed my mom's mug .

Not that anyone did anything wrong , but in the sense that we always need to do difficult things in order make life better like it should be . . 

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