Monday

 I just had a panic attack . It is almost 13 o clock.

We just got home from buying a few things

and I had an appointment at the airport

  to get a new Global Entry card .

That all went well , except we got tacos at jack in the box .

I panicked because  I keep thinking of Jen ...  

I feel too weird .   I should stay in control of my thoughts and feelings ...

I hope We can be okay 

Now and consistently 

For all times   - -

.. jennifer , jenzyme , adaptojen

   - -   And get stronger

And more hopeful

And Love ,   learning all the meanings of Love and what we need to do to make it last and help our friends become better and live better

infinite i guess

I want to fix our Minds and the Past and the Future

All the things and thoughts   that i should have thought about ... done better ..

Think better

Think and try to do and say only good things , true , helpful ..

Fixing  ..  everything .

I didn't sleep much .... i got extremely high last night and masturbated. 

I think I am full of regrets and confusion .

I got too frustrated ,  trying to do and think simple things ..

Yesterday Aaron , Andee and i ate and walked .  I tried to explain  that Jen and I had difficult talks then we said goodbye.

What .. is ...

....

Honest ...  

Buying groceries. Cooking meals .  Cleaning everything  . 

Driving you to a hospital ,  giving u medical attention 

Staring at u . Making u smile or laugh

We are math equations 

i can know everything ,  or enough

what to do

Begin and complete    []:

My heart is insane 

My life is A music and movie

             Go to a place

Roads

Walls , Roofs

Electricity

Sun lights 

Humans with jobs

Protecting 

Serving

Following orders

Invent the world  saving objects ,  facts ,  fingers making tools

innovate .. Human grade ,  quality of life improvements

I should live for ever

I should always say ,  i love you

I should mean Everythiing 

Can you help  me ?   Is something really wrong with me ?

What can i do to help  us?

I built a perfect city

We became a perfect earth

Why can i always be real , or something 

K

Is this Rainbow ?

Is always Now?

Will u be okay ?

Hope so ,

Talk with u soon . . .

- Gregory wredberg 

To Asiia, 

Are you doing good? I was feeling really bad about my last relationship and breakup. So much is difficult to understand. .. so a bit lonely i think [: but doing okay most of the time. Thank you so much for listening and being here. Wanna hug u so much , ha 😂 

I didn't get any good sleep, so i feel too weird [:

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Hmm.

I should sleep.