I may have always been bad at sharing and communicating , connecting and participating , getting involved even in my own life, becoming a part of something. Talking to people. 

So

I should confess to everyone about everything

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I have had very strange relationships. I keep giving up ..

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I really want to be on south padre island , or on my way , the high way ...

I really hope to win mega millions tonight . My whole life plan is to win at least a million dollars .

I'm going to take classes to learn how to keep a house in order and take care of children.

Then i will apply to be a foster parent .

Then I Will foster and adopt children ,

Then utopia and paradise will be 

and we all will beternally.

Yea , so. I just go crazy sometimes .. and I gave some women a lot of money and did things . .

I should not have told Jen that I love her so much , and we will be married with children and I'll take her all over the world .

       Because I need to figure out what I should do , or I should just be doing most of the things that I know i should be doing. And becoming a better person with good habits and a good life ..

Then I can fill Jen's cups , and we will both be complete and ready for Life with God . . .

I wish I could think better and explain what I need to do to change myself in my life . . .

I'm not sure what I feel or what I will say to mom when i go to her house after my haircut today . 

I gotta kill some time. I'm gonna donate plasma if i can , so I hope I can drive safely when I have not been sleeping enough .

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