I just had a panic attack . It is almost 13 o clock.
We just got home from buying a few things
and I had an appointment at the airport
to get a new Global Entry card .
I kept thinking of Jen ... i feel too weird , i should stay in control of my thoughts and feelings ...
I hope We can be okay
Now and consistently
For all times - -
.. jennifer , jenzyme , adaptojen
- - And get stronger
And more hopeful
And Love , learning all the meanings of Love and what we need to do to make it last and help our friends become better and live better
infinite i guess
I want to fix our Minds and the Past and Future
All the things and thoughts that i should have thought about ... done better ..
Think better
Think and try to do and say only good things , true , helpful ..
Fixing .. everything .
I didn't sleep much ....
I think I am full of regrets and confusion .
Honest ...
Buying groceries. Cooking meals . Cleaning everything .
Driving you to a hospital , giving u medical attention
Staring at u . Making u smile or laugh
We are math equations
i can know everything , or enough
what to do
Begin and complete []:
My heart is insane
My life is A music and movie
Go to a place
Roads
Walls , Roofs
Electricity
Sun lights
Humans with jobs
Protecting
Serving
Following orders
Invent the world saving objects , facts , fingers making tools
innovate .. Human grade , quality of life improvements
I should live for ever
I should always say , i love you
I should mean Everythiing
Can you help me ? Is something really wrong with me ?
What can i do to help us?
I built a perfect city
We became a perfect earth
Why can i always be real , or something
K
Is this Rainbow ?
Is always Now?
Will u be okay ?
Hope so ,
Talk with u soon . . .
- Gregory wredberg






























