An Idiot prayer

 I should write neatly and legibly, I am sitting on a couch on my leased apartment room. I have often asked, what is wrong with me? Can I be Joyce-like, joycian, Joycesque ?  what has God done for me? What are You doing for me? What will I do for All You ?   time is much when I sleep half as much as I should ..   am I obsessed with Kristen F. A-o, after helping her move house yesterday?

Ya. Probably. I imagined stalking her or asking if I can help her unpack .... i messaged her on facebook...

_ gregorywredberg .

Thank you.

PS

She replied and said ' greatly appreciate ' .

 https://newgirlybelong.blogspot.com/2025/08/hand-prayer-to-god.html?m=1

                       Help Pattern

       I believe Wise Words. Only you are wise enough. You are the most worthy of belief and trust, love. Do I love   trust and believe myself? Do I hold you above all else? How do I best help all humans, historically and eternally? Methodologically. Do I write Lists? How do I challenge myself? How do I sleep healthily, eat, move, work, All for good, All for you.   I will be our best friend. I will be diligent, careful, considerate,     honor, glorify, Esteem, emBody goodness, be excellent, be You, God, Father Son Holy GHost.

Distillations

   This is the book that changes your mind.

This is your mind, who changes memories, including summer days and trees above you.

This is the human who changes your life.

I am like a human man, drinking water eating plants and other animals.

Distal philanges

Constellations

Physics invasion 

Where you sit on glass

Elbow on glass

I find and walk down to Barton Creek

As I will tell my Aaron friend, 

There are cool boulders by the dry creek

Peaple and Sun

I am afraid we may have fun.

Do I ask her ?

   if we are ever compatible, do you want to get married with me?

Answers ?

Who  is  Good?

Will   Everythiing   die?

I amabout theend. 

The world's future is a space station on the surface of Eeaarthth h.

Safe to be Elected

Wondering ubiquitous 

A star made for selection 

Fug

I expect acceptance 

Now hear,

                          Hi yfhrurydijf

Hello,

               If Youth freely hermanewticizes

Red ugly reefer

You decide

infallibly 

Justice

Forall. 

  a lot of things that I  " do "  are autobiographical, some how.

After work I drove to the corner store and got gas , a mega millions ticket and a magnum of pinot noir.

I hope I don't drink anymore, Because I should be responsible.

My mom is coming to my apartment tomorrow to take us to see the film Eddington.

I am excited. I think my Aaron friend likes it. I should ask him.

I have 3 different cancers ,   maybe,   maybe,    maybe

Where a world

Fake slap 

Mission  derivatives .-    nopalitos 

Why would do the alien-like observe alien-like alike ?

Record intelligence, exists to reason, infinite eternal understanding, for God's sake

What will anything do ?

 This is perfect.

This is where i belong.

Excuse me

and This must be Christmas 

New Transcendent Worlds,

Save me with a flick of your tongues

First I walked to the corner store , lottery tickets wonder . . Tylenol . . mystery . . . .

-- We are old women with perfect human bodies

We will be heaven

Virgins do not exist 

We are only the most knowledgeable and the wisest

At the most fertile physical piques

Do you want to hold the special soup ?

?

- - i i am taking a double dose of kratom drink

I am excited to finish watching this , https://youtu.be/1AYjSl9fYsE?si=fbH7VrLWigoWgQaQ

Tim didn't feel like working today ,

So my life is really something else ,

You must have probably maybe noticed --

Am I all here or all there ?

Will you be with me and They Will

I feel so Good .

I drink irish breakfast tea

 https://newgirlybelong.blogspot.com/2025/07/triple-wealth.html?m=1

 

 Hope

Waffle

I learn a word. By believing in God we hunt you to eat wise humans understanding 

under bridges. I ate eleven thousand drugs in human fecal systems. 

Steel wool attached to the critical crucial function of an adult human leg

I was an understanding, so that an Israeli man swallowed a porpoise, and the ruler of Gaza syringed the final neonatal cure in the futile West eye

He gulped the insane peace

She ruled in 15 minutes and the 1 year became all of Our glory mistake swipe cringe blood luck human hope, money munch glove 

full of purpose and love, cutting sticks to burn bread and winters

A doctor baby skull 

I mean What you mean

The End

Sleep Times Ten Thousand

Armfulls of young children

Meadows and fields 

O a tree full of flowers 

O sunny day ?  The blood book, the internet school

The housing complexly

I ate her.

We sold memory.

I beckon god's bluish happy nug mug lug 

Up down mountain 

Detail desert, unbecoming and reforest 

Reference library

All science knowledge 

Her mind ate future history 

The mind of God 

Face ate human wonder

The leaf in a sink 

A bubble of the GKNQPNCXY

. .. . 

 

 I don't know how to compare people.

I am a real kind of person.

Maybe I live mostly honestly.

I'm usually not honest with people. I am bad socially and verbally. I wonder what to live honestly means.

How do I read a whole book?

How can I connect with people, so that we can build a better society?

I feel my lips are a cartoon cardboard.

The brown stones tip over the bricks

On the hard hats. On The Streets 

I have a meat head.

Human people are meety and

Made of the Spirit of God's Will.

I don't have work today for some reason.

I wasn't paying attention really.

How do I make myself

Care more and be less lazy?

 Do I really care about people? Or do I just want to sleep and eat and be comfortable, fulfilled and satisfied , somehow.

?

Can God help us understand?

How can I question god?

Or maybe They like that?

Obviously They Love us more than we can imagine.

So I saw rabbit in the grass. It was green and leafy,

So I reached into it and picked it up.

The last three 'it's are the rabbit.

The rabbit opened his mouth, and I saw a little green snake dying in there.

A little grey cloud popped over on my shoulder,  so

I said,  Hey, Rabbit and snake, Please don't have a cow man...

   Snake opened her littler mouth: in it I saw the Cloud open up into a good sky.

The End

It was the end.

 

New Girly Be Log

My profile photo is Jo Firestone, upside down.

June 10, 2025

 I will win the lottery but I will give away all my money. Or maybe not, I'll just do whatever I want to do.

We must do what God wants. Are feelings and emotions are just expressions of nature?

We listen to the one Mind only.

Okay. GoOd. Talk with you soon, live

Love

GREGORYCHINA

Hihowareuou Businessman, Mr. The 4ourth

Bye bye 

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 Hi. Feel like I have been gone a while. 

I need to go to work in ten minutes. 

I am trying to poop. I am distracted by writing this. 

I like being a lone. I like this apartment. I like to be a live.

I saw Caught by the Tides on a plane flight from Oslo to New York, JFK.

I love it. I told Aaron. She is lovely, lovely. 

I just scheduled a text to tim in 5 minutes at 7:25,

I'm running late 🐱 

 😸 😔 😭 😫 😞 😩 😸 🐈 😻 🐈‍⬛️ 😺 

🐱 .

My legs are going to sleep. 

I neeed to wipe and dress and carry things to a car and unlock it, open it, put things inside it, start it, drive it, park, stop it, walk to where tim is and help him finish building a deck for a old lady 

.

Tim said No worries. He says that almost every work day, almost always more than once.

I almost always forget to brush my teeth more than once, almost always brush soon after eating before i go out 

I think I wanted to say something else. 

I had a nice chat with Deepseek about moving to China. 

I reconnected with Jen.

I am doing something. After work, I want to go talk to a counselor or therapist at the Travis County mental health office on William Cannon. 

Thanks 

Journal 2

 Prehistoric BackPaiin

 Viccaring Vicariously 

The rehearsal is in my top 5 shows ever right now

Season 2, the pilots stuff, is basically blowing my mind

Season 1 got so intense .

It is 3 : 28 .

I am in bed.

I was watching videos ..

Fore that I downloaded and played with an app then deleted it

Fore that I made spaghetti and ate , watching Hank Green then Gmm .

Fore that I ate a banana

Fore that I slept

Think I fell to sleep about 9 / 21 o clock ? .

Listening to sleep with me pod cast

The End 

To night

P. S.

I have the chorus of Wake Me Up playing in minD

I don't care if I don't sleep and am sleepy at work

My posture is stupid so that my back hurts

I want to eat pain medicine 

Hm

Sounds like meds that give pain

Pain relief 

Or pain abolition 

Cure for pain

I got weed

That means nothing. I just like the sounds

The end end

I am Nathan

I am nothing 

Born in Missy eliot 

Taken for a ride in fool town

Take a train, put it in God's pocket, made of genial genitals 

A acclimation 

Accumulate snow , because of the Earth is dying like now

So good night 

And good morning 

Bye

Be with you

Self

Love you

Til next - Time 

.

Trinity 

Journal 05328983195 e

    I used to care more about being healthy :

Now I care more about

History and humans tending to become

More healthy and Christ-Like.

I hope the way I use language helps us

Understand ourselves /

I hope we know what I mean 

And we change For the better.

Probably yesterday 

I thought something Like 

As human animals we are everyone we were and more, potentially everything ?-

As eternal people ,

Benevolence, Wisdom , paying attention , taking care

Making breakfast 

Sleeping like a baby

Or a death bed

The perfect end

But what time, perspectives

How and what and why do we know?

This was the best situation of elements or energies

A person with a name

Body life

A living ..

Hair, Skin, clothing, books

Play ground

Dance kitchen

Art work

Bible

God

I'll try again

Thank you

Good Bye

Love, Gregory. 

?

Kinda in response to Vee Jennee

  1326

I feel very old

Sleepy and weak

I had one too many cayman jack margaritas last night. 

I guess to do things

I seem to not care

I am 35 and a half 

I was at my mom's Friday and Saturday.

I drove back to my apartment 

I recorded a video :

Will do another when my timer rings and the THC gummie has kicked up

Then I'll take another 15 milligrams gummie.

Then set a timer

After 2 hours , I will record a 3rd video

Okay

Something 

Me

Bye now.

Yes, then

 10 : 16

I am seated on a toilet in my childhood home, run by my mother. 

The seat looks like wood. Maybe it is.

I need to read One Piece.

Life to me is a trial and an error.

Experiment, hypothesis, thesis, synthesis, antithesis 

Christ opens wide, welcoming arms and bodies, bear hugs, plastic laughing, living brain

My ma and I will watch a lot of TV.

I will eat leftover pluckers for lunch.

She wants a little caesar's or pizza hut today.

I look forward to driving into town.

O ya. I am so afraid of Aaron, it is insane. 

It almost feels like Final Judgment, 

like swaying on the edge of hell or Heaven. 

The End

Do good things

Also I feel like I will meet the professor and I've been skipping class and most of me always tries to give up

What should I say?

Should I drop out?

What should I learn?

Can I just build things for people. 

What is our end goal.

    14 : 04

Wow I feel so typical

  " I need to kill .  I need to come . "

Male

Species 

Look of me

Think at me

The very this

I drink coffee and chocolate syrup and ice

21 44

I can really be a real person. 

Do you agree?

I try to live a factual life.

I am going to sleep in a moment. 

March 14th, 15th

 change my phone to military time

20:10

I couldn't find how

I brush teeth and go sleep.

I'll watch videos in bed

Til tomorrow I love you

-greg 

It's 409

I woke at 1 something.

I logged onto you tube, happy to see geekenders. I usually prefer them without a guest. Crendor is good. 

I love to listen to old Cox n Crendor in the Mornings.

I ate breakfast. Onions, beancheese burrito, butter and Ensure plus.

I want to be really hungry in Lockhart. Tim and I will fix Betty's attic. I will help a bit. I guess he will buy me lunch. I don't care. 

I love doing stuff. I don't know what I do. 

I would love doing nothing  ,  it it were possible. 

I hope to dream before I need to get ready for tim to pick up me here this morning, Saturday 

Everlasting 

Pumkin uncle pokemon push pin Pushkin

-

O stories

 Stories to Eat other Living things Baking the braised apple at 6AM on Tuesday

 My pineapple suOn is a liquid nitrogen factory

 that takes all day to leave and return His mother's forecasted exception expectation

So very possibly written on the sideways train car Anxious state However  many , However however many Taxonomical journeys Figure out who is How The  richer the meaningful Resist resistanceOf

Scopes of blood and monkey hair vagina Complex capital societies Dream up the stolen bell tower on the Skyscraper , ingenious Guilful Read redesignPolyp Estuary

Soak the apple in vinegar Play the time Sophomore Supper Sully Soporific sincerity Left left left Behind and open car The sun for 1 year. Adverb

The End

On Sunday the Spine of the Woman

 

  factories surrounded by trees

Farms surrounded by trees

Armies who govern themselves

Prisons where people learn skills and intrinsic values of human lives

A row of houses

Soup shop

Butcher shop

Fabric shop

Machine shop

Grocery

School

Library

Gymnasium

A park , a park , a park

Administrative offices

 Why are people so different? Why do we think different things?

 put humans in homes, clothes, eating well, good life work....

 When I think about a "quote attractive woman unquote"

Like Stevie wynne levine, I wonder how some can be so desirable 

.

I am attracted to maybe half of all women who are close enough to my age, maybe 25 to 45.

The way they present themselves is almost perfect

Or I think they are.

Like gillian jacobs or Michelle williams 

What is it like to be like some people like that

What is being Jennifer Hudson?

What is vain or humble? What are pride, self-awareness, practicality and ascension .. and transcendence?

What is a TV person?

How do people make porn or internet content?

How do  skincare, makeup, healthy habbits and healthcare  work?

Where does my energy come from?

Where does it go, What do I do?

I must fix everything. First myself 

My brain and habits

My face and personality 

I don't know how

People do many things 

I love people 

We are star babies

Nice to know you....

Also how are people like Doctors and Nurses

Taking years

To focus

And memorize almost everything We need to know to help human health.

 Homeopathetic shaman

 Eating weeds

 Clean between the teeth

 Robust heart

Cancel the mind blind computer session

Blowing through every trial,  I'll 

B not ill 

Blurred blood is mood mud n sunny sun , blooming Bible

 When there is no more time to think

.

I wonder what life, the world and people will be like ,

When everyone is christian .

They think to themselves and decide, I am a christian.

What's gonna happen

.

Too late

Almost late enough

 I always drink too much

I am self destructive

Self sabotaging

I wonder why

What will my present self get ,

My future won't ?

.

I donno 

____

I took a second t h c gummy . That is all for today. 

I am extremely addicted to YouTube 

I actually don't know what to do without it

I call Dodger 'brook thorn'  my girl 

Gorl is also good

I want to die. 

I don't know anything 

By bye

[: 

I love You. 

It's at least an hour later.

What is enough?

I just took another gummy

 I did christian surveys, 

A question about war,

I  say

People can speak through their differences to peacefully collaborate on improving our lives and planet.

It's almost 8 on Sunday.

I am going to drink alcohol.

Yesterday my mom bought me irish cream at costco.

I drank a lot last night.

It went by quickly .. also I took 2 thc gummies.

I love that it's raining.

I wonder if I'll eat something good. I guess I'll finish the pizza rolls.

I'm always happy when I can watch Dodger,

I just started today's Sunday Afternoon Dooger.

Okay, I am done. I am kind of tired.

I wonder if I'll watch The Brutalist.

I would go back to sleep.

I thought of giving plasma, it's been too long

I think I'll take a gummy

Everything will be

.

The End 

   Is n ' t it perfect?

я we not peяfect ? я

 Christ Almighty safe my soul again.

I am winding through unending days.

Nuclear Friendships, freedom of mind, 

Give us our lives open ending.

The blood of jesus is white wine

The Wine of Jesus is white blood.

  Log on the web on the internet. A lot of my ohh games sitting on the toilet pooping, but I guess I'm done, but I guess I should take a break and wipe my butt stand up english man. This is a poem. I mean, this is a diary entry. This is a journal. This is a book that I wrote with my brain. My, there's a fact in my mind. There's nothing before me or after me. There's another plant. There's 2 plants here. I want to give everyone chocolate Bunny. I wanna give myself a raging heart attack. I want to flow through imperious space with mind like a serrated gun ship. My life is a quiet triangle of loss .. full of Death and misery and love . Love kills Everything else. My mind is a crime for humanity to solve underneath A bloody treatment for Christmas dying girls eating the brains of the alien who spoke about his own meaninglessness but. in doing so made the perfect meaning before God and before me and I said Yes, and God said, give me another one, and I did and he said okay. Now we are going , go ,

Go.

 It isn't at all about the arrangement of atoms and light.

It is about people.

And our desires and self control and willpower and benevolence .

I guess 

i hope

i pray to You

I put faith in You, Father, Son, Holy Ghost

I worship You. 

Thank you. 

Ameen.

 I can only try twice.

Talk with the Faces of God

 Talk with the faces of God.

Ten thousand one other souls

A Time of possums

Crafting 

Craftspeople

Drafting 

Blueprints of understanding

Humans crapping on the substantial being

Karen does her job ,

Moves items for sale in a shop.

Step

A city, town and village 

IslandLife

School Fed

.

How can we be perfect?

I will be good enough. 

I might as well try.

' Reasons ' to overthink

.

Monopolies of manufacturing and agriculture

Do we what will

Why do I think some things are difficult?

Why do I ever think I don't care about anything?

Every conscious person always cares about something.

I've known since high school, I must read important documents and Good books.

I must practice science

To understand

( Best Practice )

To improve human lives

By creating things, places, systems and situations 

Full of health, sustainability, 

To expand Mind.

Why exactly would I be just Jesus Christ?

Good question 

I wonder what my life could have been.

Nothing is inevitable

All is Will

 In him

Worry I dropt something 

 Is my reasons and no longer anything

God.

Validity and boring boringness 

The one hand washes itself.

 I am always up Early

Because I feel like god.

When you call a mother Distracted, 

She does not know to choose

Taboo of being two people 

Because 

After all the times i told myself, i find myself absolutely inextricably Human again

  What is a good test?

Swimming hot tub and pools

Corpus, Padre, Full moon palm.

High hi.

  I will count to 100,

Think of everything I've ever done wrong

Then everything I can ever do good from now on. 

When is The last time?

Why did we get a new TV?

The moon keeps rising, 

the moon keeps rising 

I can do cartwheels:

Doing cartwheels also

Means doing Cartwheels. 

Yodeling freedom train

It's an American success story. 

Blatantly ignoring family 

Suffering takes a way of life

Most cannot stomach or believe. 

Show me your personhood.

I am flat out menage a trois 

With a hope and belief. 

Amputate.

Derive the certainty syllable,

One in a vajillion,

I take it

You deliberate 

Sanctity of Skin

Knows 

Eyethroat 

Beg the Decency

From blossoming choices...

Comfort care for the sick and injured. 

Worship

 

God is a warship,

Silent Retreat. 

Colossal mistake, 

Baby meat

Private Mary 1st class

Jesus can you knock

My bleeding mercy

Knowledge in the 5th

Roundabout Personhood.

Saviour complex

Bursted open alien

Functionality. 

Time Father 

Granted

Ape sanctuary, 

Blessed forgetful 

Seed money memory 

Appliance design

App on your phone

Tells We don't 

Municipal dungeon 

Makeout warriorslave 

, sane Angel, burning 

Questions, flavors 

Of the Day.

Popularity and Hair

 Music and defensiveness

I'll try not to kill meself everyday 

Any more

The More of Anny

.

Wild  Wooly  Cool  Womean

Beauty Loving

Beauty like love is a miracle.

They are verbs and actions.

Even if loving of the self

,

A woman chopping firewood

,

She survives to benefit humanity.

Chase her vibes.

Athletic meaningful dances

The care for self , the selfless axe

Acts of love

Homeless shelters

Soup kitchens

The end of anything....

Body Spoken

 I got a thousand minds;

My mind ain't one .

Gimme All You Got

 Aaron and I send texts and Links.

Give me life. Give me Love.

I deserve nothing. I deserve everything.

Let us play at the Limits.

Get drunk with Children. So what?

What should I be?

Don't you see me,

You don't know what to be.

Magnificence, 

Dawn, first floor breakfast room, glass wall views of the boardwalk, beach and sea.

January Ocean -

   Teenager in a Wetsuit .

Give me all you got.

All you got.

Think I want to Be with You.

https://newgirlybelong.blogspot.com/2025/01/class-divide-poem.html?m=1

 

Summer days

fall off the roof of the project. 

Releasing the moon from the cage

Which we build to confine the mind

To stop the learning of Friends

And the Sun, who are dead and

Growing Old.

So in the name of receiving

What God takes.

- -

Open the crates ,

Free the cranes.

African Nature 

Speechless midwest zoo people.

Jack and Sue Hanna

Cbsabcnbc , Saturday morning vacation coast Into the wild

I Didn't Get 

To Pinch My

Uncle's Face Yet.

1 Bed Beach Club Condo Wake

I'm a cocoon. I'm a butterfly. 

How can 1 be both?

I'm a human. I'm a God's mirror. 

Might be a million,

I may be 1 Million People. 

Correct Predictions: 2050

1.  Some human will write a sequel to a list of predictions. 
2.  A girl will be born.
3. The sun will be brighter. 
4. For every eleven doctors, there will be more than one nurse.
5. I will be dead, within 25 years. 
6. More than one prediction will be correct. 
7. One business will make more profit that last year.
8. Three non-profits will survive more than one year. 
9. There will be a new planet.
10. There will be failed and successful space missions.
11. Ten people will live more than 100 years in a row.
12. Less burgers will be eaten.
13. Less cows will be born.
14. Someone under 3 will write a book.

The End

Why are you sounds?

I was awake before.

Trust me I can be, Everything.

...

The Mother Of All

Photosynthesizer

 We can't breathe or eat

Without photosynthesizers

.

Taking care of ourselves is taking care of ecosystems. 

Photos

Physical copies

Humanmade Light

DJs , turntables , palm trees , ferns , grasslands , corn fields , deep woods

Web sites

   Thorax Fixations

Dream Words

 True Virtues

   Real   Life

Re views

 Somebody Somewhere

Gives me a humanist existentialism 

We each live unique lives, shifting paths

Sands and hands

Times rhymes lime teeth feet

No one everyone, beginning end

Okay , same to me ,

Thanks

- g d w

So many of us in this universe

Just one to putup

" she brought me home .. "

Thanks for leaving me here to die.

The End

The crank, the chain

The position, the angle

The flea, the flight 

 It is just like time,

Just like fading into eternity.

Fade to Yellow 

Ko op radio

And I am and I sleeppp 

Watching and believing 

SUNDAY AFTERNOON DOOGER - 05 January 2025

Thess

Fractal Bean

What does that mean?

Where does that come from?

The End

I check my mailbox again.

I spent the military budget on the homeless .... fields of wheat and books about Communism.

I just watched the Sci Show Tangents 

episode Randomness 

As I took that photo

Ceri said Snapshot.

As Hank said, 

This is not about How things Are

It is about Things happening 

.

My mother's basement is an apartment thirty miles away.

The noon becomes the day,

Becomes the afternoon, becomes the hay

That we used to fertilize the cows' drinking water.

Barbecue Wrap

I am wearing a bracelet of orange stones.

It means I love you please stay

   Is the name of the rock band who sold out to kill Dead Insects.

Arbitrary in Love

Arbitrarily in Love

Arbitrary and in Love 

Scenic scene of wastefulness

I am trying to create alternative cosmoses.

Refugee crisis

 I wish I would be like people I admire. I can just sleep and eat healthy food. I have no idea why I am this way.

Nothing lasts long, but that also means our whole lives, so things are difficult. I don't know how to do things... I guess

[1/8, 05:09] CTL Bub:

 Thank you for sharing with me.

[1/8, 05:10] CTL Bub: 

Are there any activities that tend to help you feel calmer or distract yourself from your thoughts when you feel this way?

[1/8, 05:11] Gregory Wredberg: Asmr and other youtubers. Just searfing the web, probably

.

...

An End.

P. S.

[1/8, 05:13] Gregory Wredberg: I should shower or bath first. And take a short walk.

[1/8, 05:13] CTL Bub: Those are also really good strategies

[1/8, 05:14] Gregory Wredberg: I don't know if I want anything. I want to know what I should do.

[1/8, 05:14] CTL Bub: Let's make a plan, how does that sound?

[1/8, 05:15] Gregory Wredberg: Good ideas

https://goodenoughtoknow.blogspot.com/2025/01/good-ideas.html?m=1

Please help. How should I go to sleep? And how to live? My guess is we are eternal. We should figure something out.

The Planet Planet in the Place of Space

 just talked with Susie, Laura. I don't know what to do. Thanks anyway. .. I feel kinda empty I guess. Kinda frozen and sad. I fear no one really knows anything. 

I eat a salad of green and red.

I eat raw animals. 

I walk to rivers and drink the best water ever.

I wake up in Every one.

They send me glad newses. 

They are the newest people on the Planet in Space.

They eat lava lizards. 

They take breath naps.

We heap groves on metal hills. 

We grab technologies and twist realities. 

We eat fake bodies. 

We grow life anew again for the last and third time.

Bye.

You can now hope.

You are sweet and fun.

You eat live love.

You made all of it

Susie, on a text help line

 God be with you. You are the best. Thanks for being you, letting us be us, loving us. God bless.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=XdNve_bDk1Q&list=PLYsch6i6d4gS3t1xaGTX0eLs0UQFGtyIv&pp=iAQB

I crashed around sunset and woke at midnight and drank coffee. I have no plans. I don't know what to do. 

God bless you.

Keep me

Take care

Same

Thanks for Everything Susie. I don't know the biggest problem. I don't know why everyone who can help people directly, doesn't. I wonder why it is so difficult and people hurt each other and themselves.

It all hurts and confuses.

It is infinite 

And God 

and something 

Helpful. 

I just talked with Susie, Laura. I don't know what to do. Thanks anyway. .. I feel kinda empty I guess. Kinda frozen and sad. I fear no one really knows anything. 

I eat a salad of green and red.

I eat raw animals. 

I walk to rivers and drink the best water ever.

I wake up in Every one.

They send me glad newses. 

They are the newest people on the Planet in Space.

They eat lava lizards. 

They take breath naps.

We heap groves on metal hills. 

We grab technologies and twist realities. 

We eat fake bodies. 

We grow life anew again for the last and third time.

Bye.

You can now hope.

You are sweet and fun.

You eat live love.

You made all of it

Good Ideas

 ?

Why is life like this

We must

Be alive and painful and dead.

 We are bodies

Adams and thoughts.

- - - I do not know how to talk to

You.          - - - ! * this.

Here

So we procreate babies burst out of people.

Blood and guts and broken bones and fucked up organs,

Plus

We use each other for immediate relief . . .

We are evil.

And we imagine almost anything

 is true.

We would like more doctors, nurses, Researchers scientists and infrastructure builders and coders computer

 you're engineers .

How do we control our minds lands and bodies

?

 I will take you

 Take care.

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02:30am

..alk with an inperson therapist,

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I think I need medication to function in this world at the moment. I do not have enough self control.

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Sorry that I think I need your help right now, I guess I am lonely or afraid, of myself or God or something,.. sorry. I hope whoever reads this is well.

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Sorry if I say sorry too much and it bothers you. This is part of my problem with self control. I feel shame about almost everything. It is most difficult to be honest. I have never really opened up to nor fully connected with anyone. Maybe that's impossible, anyway.

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3:15

Allways

I, the Maid of Infinite Surprises

 I, the Maid of Infinite Surprises,

Do solemnly accept your marriage 

Through the toilet paper tube hole ,

Brown cardboard In the biggest waste dump on the planet Earth, 

Brazil, Younited State of America, am I 

Sorry?, table salt,

You, the Practical Smoocher,

Alone on Desert Islands with bamboo

and bamboozled baboons Wasting 

Bananas, TV Screen survivors, All

Wanted and ppreciated .

Safe town takes protective measures

And Headlines Music Scrunchies

This Little 5-Year-Old Says

Mucus of the brain,

Brian The End.

Hi, Hi.

 I have to make a song.

Question irrelevance?

Bloomberg is only seven quarters.

I got A song, cause my face was a quietly wrong person.

In boston massachusetts the retailer succumbs to the realtor.

In three twenty two at the time it happens, and I could good decide.

They all do question it, it supersedes one second.

As a creator the interesting cosmos of dialogue

Punishment for a shock of a car dealing dog

School let the air out of a possum's eyeball

These were the ones at the ballet it seemed

To be fun the Fall

I ask willingly

Proper conceptual consent

Hypothetical.

Indistinct appropriation

Forgive trusting solopsists

Rewriting engraved Shopping lists

Hi

Thend

 Thanks for asking questions. We need healthy livable conditions. We need tools and systems, infrastructure. We need to work and plan with each other to help people get healthier and live to our full potential. The end...

Probably No one can make me                                         happier ,

Dexbonus Brooke Throne

https://www.instagram.com/dexbonus/reel/Cz9IhJ7Nf0R/?hl=en

The End

Is talking to Anyone with or without a voice?

You are perfectly dry.

Want Be Do

 I want to live forever and I want to kill myselfe

Everyone is proof that consciousness is eternal.

I want to do nothing , be nothing , want nothing . gg

Is there a difference

I can save your life

I can make bread for a kid

I can grow an apple

I can build a bedroom

I can make your toes warm and comfortable

I can eat stars in the planets

I can sweat in my crack

I can blow bubbles on the window pane

I know a guy who loves my body because of jesus christ

I know god personally ; They are sitting in my guts

Ten thousand euro tree

Years old

You're so old.

I am believing

I am a trust machine

I am a liquidated economy of cherished beings

They all get what we want

the shape of sunny

Blooming Funny Shackle Meaning Coercive 

I wrote a book in a movie.

They built a shed and in it is the fine tool

Sweat water and leave the control

Pineapple Heart disease

Quiet winter left over death

One more is enough

Messenger preacher mother friend mouse page

 

Hello i'm still alone.

Cave my eyes from your fires

Hello i'm just a moan

In the time when I was filled with no desires.

I was a cold white tryangle on the pussy foot

The cold man takes his      [[texas]]       understanding too far

The stove is looking for a messenger bottle

He takes his rice hand and

Puts my holy God through hell

A Sunday morning Preacher gives my cremated mother a hand out.

Now my interested friend is opening his wonder mouth

A mouse takes his time and lands on the front page

Good night.

 epistemically  --   -      -  infinite. .  Black holes .   .    .      End o' Time.        .Relationship.

" Heh【: exactly. I'm just starting to think that everything, mostly relationships and trying to know ourselves, is puzzles for us designed by God. Love Glen 

- to Aaron. 

But I was too embarrassed to send it.

At almost midnight 

Why illogic?

God is my friend. 

Go Gone Goings 

I eat fishy friends.

The light decides comically 

Compression    Interventions

Fifteen letters

Seventeen Letters

I love You 

I love You 

And you .

. . .

The End 

That was a good song.

I was a show. tame The shrew with 2 bucks. They run through you like a .. tall bus .. Toll Booth man operating his own life in a trial-and-error Situation of comedy. push the button down on the stove Top ; it gets liquidated as a crop top mop top Duo of the South, American life. Give them a trial-free trophy for being your wife.  Stove pipes. Give all of our time to a lord's Giving children opportunities to live on the shores of , Eva Gemma , iwojima and Nantucket, Boston, Massachusetts, eating lobsters and cooking dry fish cakes for tourists leaving tips, 10,000 nickels on the bar. Kiss the lady who ask for more. gave her a stove. And ate all her  chores. Heard. I want to live with a Mexican band, every person who owns no land.  Have a party with the coal miner's Son .. (Omaha). Have a bucket of fun with the Sun. You know is. Eat all the children's money. And have a son with a woman or a guy have all the time in the world and live. Wish you were me and I wish I were you.  Coal Mining is fun for a minute or 2. Have you gotten your recipe Book filled out to submit to the local economy? Cool, cool post-African love I tried to begin again.  Listen and open my eyes. And the truth will caress a trojan-uary warrior, A Chinese life boat.  life preserver, Give us all the things that we order. Forecast the meaningful bit of your life.  To show us how we can hope again 

the end

Human Person Journal

 

I look around and wonder how humans did all this,

Factories, tools, corporations, years. 

They pull raw metals from mines in Earth.

Blacksmithing is far away from

Computers, skyscrapers, Google fiber, space stations 

. . . .

Layer of Christianity

 Emergency of other emergencies ,

Axiomatic misunderestimation

Talk to the end with a middle.

The sex eats like a mouth

Putting Stuff in .

How many people have you had sex with?

Me, 1.

I've had direct sexual experiences with 3 people. 

And indirect with 3 others.

 I've kissed 4 people.

Last year I hired a prostitute twice.

I texted her a lot. I said I think I really love you.

She said I don't think you know what love is.

I said she is correct.

We often ignore instincts.

Maybe we should.

Experiments of Time

          ( Give Me Bad 4 No Reason )

I shouldwatchJoePeraandTheRehearsal.

I have 2 or 3 cats, wood and fur    [1 and 4]

Placable apartment floor, fiber, bored

carpet _ Feeler.     She makes ivory coffing,

Hallelulah, hello, hi, i'm gone now, then bye.

I like how people think; they move

mouths and fingers, use tools, fake forget.

Talking to solve Purpose

Entertaining flooded feet puss, Blood in

       Toilet, Have a fact, imperfect eternaliTy.

Save our faces, we know not, silent

    innocence, blue stages

    African home body, Careful Wake

    Insane Prolific

 A cat shakes a heard of beasts

 

Interested internet of wild hope

Piss off science doo hicky challenge rope

Pine scenic drive south of taste Death

Range awful bananas ;; I tiredly tried folks' names on Dates ....

I look around and wonder how humans did all this,

Factories, tools, corporations, years. 

They pull raw metals from mines in Earth.

Blacksmithing is far away from

Computers, skyscrapers, Google fiber, space stations 

. . . .

From a Past

 I saw blood and soft

Sunlight off

Safety in sight thinking mind thank you start

 I was sad because I was not he

Not me.

Sound that looks like you look at

Breaststroke through

 Ambiguous space

 Save the Kitchen.

Friend 1, friend 2

Mistakes convent - yellow pole

Run out, come back, 

Redact, finite Break, spin

Late, I imagine I am surfing 

On a line Scuba is Your velocity 

Intricate lathe positioning

But sand flights, 

Gregory resets a normal life 

Habitual stances, lying-

Shave shape interpersonal 

Connection Judgment 

- "

Bottom to Top

The bottom half of the body blew up.

How could they purvey irreconcilable hurt and

distant okayness?

Thank You, Star.

We invent the feeling of

ignoring the pain.

No one is quite as absent.

No legs, no sex, no bowels,

No problems -

Easy as a pie and cake fixing fingernail beds

To the red

Bottom of the lake bed,

A scratch draws a thin streak and droplet

With her cat

Spine lost, Forgiven nerves.

We sent taken gifts,

Squoze them in our fists,

Released options, hot gulp -

In us as sensory vehicle forms of doing us.

A party schooner acrobats larger bodies in,

Gone for Good, time told seamen spelled. ...

Big Believer

 I'm a big believer,

In time I trust God will have spoken for me.

I watched some The Rehearsal.

I was amazed.

Present religion and parenthood

I don't know what to do.

Are you better off now than you were?

Are you still reaching for a cause for effect?

Sanities are like lightning bolts: they grow up when they don't support. 

Why are people this invested in material comfort?

Why are not people more invested in spiritual growth?

 Human:" not one.

I am an actual astronaut,

So I need a break from eating Kit Kats all day.

I am a slow burning angel,

Because I am real ready when I feel things.

I was a bear taking a lap;

Now I will find a shed to nap on.

 I am the same Bucket. 

Follow a climbing chair,

Because why am I showing you a Blunt object for most things?

Popsicle tribe, take the gun and shint.

I want a factor in the bottom of a shoe that fits the face of the religious icon making food for little women.

So the diet newspaper has the focal point,

In an icy age of flow states, Mister pope‐sicle drives a stack of children stories.

That wants to be the end,

Yes of course I do not want to be stupid.

People talk about me in the third person.

I talk about a girl and a woman and a highway and a House..

What happens at the trust of a bear

With simple collection Fonts.

         _ y _ _

Poems are good for some.

Are you bloody?

I watch a clock change, 03:33, 03:34.

03:35.

Faith

Grace

Horniness

Sex, sex, sex

Sorry

Tuberculosis

Architecture 

Time

Father

Art

Feelings

Look up the son to the word

Bye to now.

Friend to the end

 I gotta write. I journal. 

My mom and I just watched episode 1 of Canal Boat Diaries.

I like it a lot. I am nervous about talking with Aaron tomorrow morning. At least we will be walking. 

I have been writing my board game idea, Kung Foo Trouble. 

It is dumb and almost nonsense,

Though not as much as magic : the gathering.

 I like my mom's house. My apartment is weird. It's a bit small. 

And I am debased. I debase myself.

I make little sense. I don't communicate well.

I have not slept well since staying up past midnight on the New Year.

I am looking forward to going to the beach, North Padre Island, next Friday. 

And going to Denmark, Sweden and Norway in four months. 

I am afraid of Aaron,

Maybe because I am afraid of God.

I should be the best version of myself. I don't know what that means.

I think I should probably marry a woman and adopt and foster children.

I should be exactly like Jesus the Christian...

Blogger.com and the desire to be like if you fight with you soon but I get distracted and I don't want it is almost lonely and I'm gonna eat it and see a big sun like that,  I should Help me out with Jen or something that will be as good for her to be a decent life as possible bests and then the first five years in the world is the existence of anything  outside, ♥️ .

The End

We also watched season 2 episode 1 of Somebody Somewhere. 

I love it

Them.

Eliza personality answers

 0

-

Pet

Yellow

Soft

Bone

No one

Fortune

Grassss

Health

ice

Notes

Naughty

Personality

Father

Squid

Daytime

Quick

Chat , cat

Wealthy

Winter

Phone

Nice.

A dog, medium, black white longhair, a guy taking it for walk on a golf course by a community college, rolls in grass.

I could kill and eat it. The dog seems fun or funny. I sit in my car watching it.

-

In South Eastern Australia, I am by a lagoon, a large waterfall and a river flowing into the ocean, huge plants and trees everywhere. You are beside me, wearing a small hide tunic. It is 22 degrees, partly cloudy, cool and warm breezes. I feel sleepy and blissful. I can barely move.

We walk on a path to the beach. It is hard dirt and clay. It is windy. It is clear. 

On the beach side is one of those rainbow bark trees. It is 100 feet tall and wide, 1,000 branches. It is the first day of spring. The leaves are the deepest green, We can still see the sky.

We are in a rowboat by the beach, calm clear water, little waves, smallish fishes. There are 2 oars in the boat, we use an 8 foot pole to move the boat. We are together. 

We relax, looking up and forward.

I imagine your bedroom door, white. It is a standard bedroom door with a knob, locks on the inside, no keyhole. I always want to go to wherever you are... I can see it behind you.

-

Choices,

Best for all people. 

 She is my netflix subscription

Waking in dry clouds, Making up pieces of crumbling drifting juicy Cheeses

.. jesus.

At the end of the rope,

Quinine filled festivals of aging gusty Giraffe.

Perfect 

----

A new year 2525

 God bless us God bless us.God bless us

God loves god loves god loves you

Give me.

 Jesus, my favorite

Fucking christ.

That's what I was saying....

It's all kosher. 

I am about to die.

I do not care if I sleep.

Even when millions of people are being raped and tortured and killed carelessly for fun,

I feel

The infinite love and hope of God,

Good dudes ..

Deeds...

Does Sheesh

Come from Jesus?

The End

Perspire Magnanimously , A One Thousand Page Book

Transpire in gifted goulashes. 

Wear the outside on every day.

Not yearning, not proper, Not Alone

Ai, prompts

 Ten beautiful in love dancing outside 

And

Ten of spiritual every people in love all of everywhere 

Ten beautiful in love dancing outside 

In seven stars line 

Making four babies doing nothing never

One slake out for tye time senses drop too.

Shhh...ut up.

Title of a movie or something 

Speaking , not sleeping before she is awake.

The blown tire, the cloak of fire,

The wind takes all the time it gives, 

And the deserty wild populates the fridges.

 Why am I things?

Why am I not things?

What are things, and why do they mean anything?

Hear the end,

Feel the end, 

Look the end.

Never is the end of freedom.

It is not the end, the end, the end.

We saw Nosferatu on Christmas Day 2,024.

 December 21st ,

God, make me die, however you want.

Of course, you know

What to do, You do

What I am to do

Given me all my mind...

God is a trillion years old.

God is a lonely child. 

 I should choose to be something.

I choose to be what I should be.

Jounal

  I'm watching Pewdiepie's latest vlog.

     The ideals of the few

Try to be sane and healthy

Safe and Stable

Murder is in the world.

We put on clothes and blinders.

We decorate our cities and our homes

We ignore most other people

We try to find a piece of our own peace

This is life at this moment

hear

What is Nativity ?

I ask you

And tube .

We are sane and healthy.

The wedding banquet with Christ and his bride, Humanity

Limitless Love , understanding and wisdom 

Do nothing.

Yes, I have got coffee, sorry.

It's all good.

All I can do is forgive you.

End

Creed

  Christian beings are

Only and always

Giving unconditional Support, Love and acceptance. 

The orthodox way is

Focussing on

Essentials, basic meaning,

Simple, elegant, beautiful, sensible

Complex, real, effective .

The examples of Jesus

And the Saints

The End

 I feel like I am absolutely explodin -

Gredients 

Greedy ENTS

I will start watching the fig grim making out

I make out with Fay Grim and Bebe

I am hell hardly and henry full

Hal hartley

Fool

I am using the voice to text so it's ... funny [:

I said I " started watching ", but it says I "will start " up there...

The making of

I was texting with Aaron :

Wow.. They are always revealing in the flow of connections and insights. Is there 1 insight that the rest come from? 

Diamonds and Fangs

        The History of Cheer and Leading

.

 This is about america

The land , the people

I saw an interesting video of a guy explaining the colonial origin of palestine

But I think he missed part of the solidarity and the identification with history and place

He missed Israel's cruelty , The corruption of the West and its exploitation of the rest

I like how he gave agency to the people living on this ancient civilized land.

This is about the difficulties of growing up

And the horror and the exuberant define transcendence

The compelling allure

The awesomeness

Being a human at the turn of the twenty first century

The technologies , the vapidness and rapidness

The way people forget and let themselves float, drift or drown.

The way people are expressions of God's love no matter what happens.

There is an order and a blueprint. The Trinity has written and will always be writing the most beautiful, comprehensive and inclusive story possible.

We are specific and a focused attempt

We use each other and we abuse what can be abused

We waste time and we make up time

We have control and we make everything better

We stub our toes , we take too big of a risk and fall and must convalesce , and our minds will heal each other .

We make artwork that reveals a mystery within us and without us.

We work on our thoughts and talk to each other to build a community of Minds that live , the same as our biologies Put together things and Buildings and places to gather and share things , like books and meals and song.

They are high schoolers 

 they have music

They are wizards

  They make games

They are actors

They have sex and tears and laughter

We are parents

We are children

We are farmers

We all eat and kill

We Write a stories With our actions and our openness

The vulnerability lets God in and out

We trust each other

We love each other

How can we go to thedge of eternity ?

How is it to meet god eternallee?

That's good for now.

  I wondered what I should do then I remembered reading.

It seems like i'm afraid to read.

I guess i'm just lazy and other sins.

I need a fear of god.

I need to do the right and difficult thing.

 

https://newgirlybelong.blogspot.com/2024/12/must-embrace-the-pain-of-knowing-of-not.html

Sickness transformed me

I need something to compare me to

I need to fix my addictions

God is the only anything needs .

God R 3

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              Vegetables

Fall 

         in

We must embrace the pain of knowing and not knowing, of changing, Of not changing, Of hoping Beyond Hope.

We thank you for revealing us

Ameen [watched Fay Grim tonight]

 What are You doing in me?

-- how am I myself, while You are omnipresent and omnipotent? --

You create the best possible World (Kingdom).

Is it always possible and always real?

You can do anything. You don't do everything. 

You Give me every opportunity, the best possible choices. 

We sincerely do what we think....

We are an instance of the cosmos, so more than thoughts, Mind.

We are Your co-creation -

Implicit, complicit, explicit,

Explanitive, complaintive (complaintiff) -

I can never be sure. Can i?

You are sure that I am sure that You Are.

Thanks

I love U

4 Eva 

,"(#&@(@[@,

G kao^#[@_>÷_÷*#^>#>>÷&=;-?

Ingracious --

Willing-complete

Uioae 

Understand. Invest-I-gate. Open. Anticipate. Explane.

Ameen

I Used This App Called Life Objectives

 https://newgirlybelong.blogspot.com/2024/12/blog-post.html?m=1

My God

 My God is my God my God is my God 

God god God 

Where did I go? Where am I now? 

There He is, Jesus Christ.

You are a great person and a cool dad.

We must abide by the rules or die without sufficient knowledge to live forever.

Ai therapy, Wysa

 

 I think I need something

To make myself feel something like I can focus on.

To cope

So that I may

So I took a nyquil pill.

Things.

Why did I forget again?

Because something else was more immediate.

Then something else again.

And something else ...

Beyond the endless

In me

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Predawn, 14-11-2024

 Shut up and dance with me. Is the title of this thing? I am walking around my mom's house. It's just after 6 AM. And the Sun will come up in a little bit. And I wish I could travel the world. I wanna live in Townsville, Australia for a little while.  I am hiding on the South side of my mom's house, walking on the paving stones? If that's what they're called. the Stone Path the pathway, the walkway. I don't know what to call the squares. Bricks of red rocks. And I think I want a million dollars because, I could do whatever I wanted to do, if I could pay for whatever I wanted to do. If I if I didn't have to work for to pay rent, if I could live for free kind of. .. good , have all the food and shelter and comforts and amenities that I wish for.  And then I can have an infinite free time Almost. And I would travel the world and probably buy a prostitute or 2. Or would try to be more intimate with the prostitute I had sex with twice in February this year.  Her name is Billy. It's the name she gave herself, I think. maybe someone else gave it to her and she liked it and kept it, but she's from somewhere near Toledo Ohio.  And I fell in love with her after I hired her, she just seemed so nice. She was 25 years old and in July she turned 26 years old. In about a month, on December 18th, I will turn 35 years old, which is so cool. I feel like I'm about halfway through my life, which makes me feel pretty old, which I like. I kind of want to be a weird old man, and I want to be with attractive women who find me attractive or just 1 womon would be nice.

 and it's pretty cold out Here. My right hand got really cold holding the cell phone to talk into this microphone making this video? So what else did I wanted to say? I don't think I need a million dollars to do whatever I want to do, but if I had .. so I'd like to keep my apartment, my expenses, what, how much money do I need?  To just live the life I want to Live. I guess maybe $2000 a month would cover almost everything, basic necessities, like housing and food and transportation, and then so add-on to that like travel expenses, Very expensive hotels. I probably could spend a lot of money, so just liberally 50,000 a month, I guess minimum. So after 10 months That would be 500,000, so +10 000, so in 2 more months so.  Is 650 000, so it's just a 700,000 a year? So yeah, a million isn't far off, I guess.

 but if I just, instead of 700000 a year, 

[ ? Like a 100 wife first ? ]

   maybe I just get A lump sum of a million dollars. Then I guess I'd be set for life if I could dis like, I don't know, invest 500000 and live off of that and then the first year I can. I'll spend most of the 500,000 traveling n stuff and then my money will make money. I can just live in hotels and Do whatever I want to do

 oh my God, I'm shivering. Yeah, what would I do now? Oh really? What I want to do is learn Spanish and Chinese and piano, learn to play the piano and speak and read and write Mexican Spanish mostly.  Mexican Spanish and then every kind of Chinese read and write and speak Chinese Mandarin mostly. Okay. This is a long enough.

and oh yeah, I was drinking Moscow mule. yeah I did that Yesterday as well. I woke up at like 3 AM. And drank a Moscow mule, Not a teal 1, a cayman Jack in the can. Anyway, I hope mom. 's okay. I hope she doesn't worry about me. I really want my mom to die so that I can just sleep, live and hang out at this house and I don't know about Hank. I thought I wanted to kill and eat our dog Hank because he's annoying Most of the time, and it's not worth it, I mean.  Of course, I like animals. I don't want to say I love animals, because I don't know. Love is such a wholly holy, divine word, and like Jesus said to love each other, and I agree with him. And I don't want to put animals, Other animals on the same... I mean humans are not just animals, assuming that humans are people... Are animals people, are trees people?  No. 

God is 3 people or 3 persons. I don't know how to say, one God, 3 people, it's cool. separate but equal identities, personalities that are undividable. It's hard to say, 3 is 1 and 1 is 30. But anyway, so people are people.  And humans are people and animals or they're not entirely animal. But Jesus was entirely human and entirely God. I don't know about the word entirely, but it sounds good enough. fully is a better word. 

Anyway, so I love everyone and everything Will work out.

 Good night? I love you?

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