I have really done it now. I have begun my abstinence, I mean I quit porn, present tense.

I will last for more than a fewwwwww days of weeks. I am and will always be proud of myself, like my only friend Aaron is once in a while...

I was "free" last night [from myself] .  Crazy and sweet Tim Heidecker Office Hours dream. In my dream i was on youtube and found a video of Doug trying to get Tim to play MTG for the last time with an Ayula deck. I tried to show Kit the video title on my phone but it was cut off and I tried rotating it. It was confusing, to say one thing.

I just went outside with Hank. I told Jessi I am a morning person. I just like mornings the most, not that I always get up early or have energy. Dawn is the most beautiful thing, if it's not too cloudy, and there's a little color.

Not everyone is up yet. We have Hours, yep.

I wanna listen to My Dog's Eyes by Zammuto.

I wanna type two complicated magic cards I made up.

Mom i think will be up in the next ten minutes. 7:30 is her usual. I usually do not think of my situation, living at Home, with my Mom, and I just became 32 years old. Seems something. Oh yep, there is my mother. 

See ya later,

Love you,

Grg.

4:33 p.m.

Also , 

I set my alarm for 7 a.m. every day. I plan to do at least one set of 10 pushups and leg lifts right after I get up. I may not be able to do 10 in a row at first... On my bed room floor... I forgot this morning, understandably, being the first.

I am nervous about going to see aaron , and family, in about 30 minutes, So i drank rhum and gin...

Oh well, I will love Aaron and them

For ever

Bye now.