I just wrote this on my Prayer post.

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 27, 7, 2024

20:12

Oh my God, I love her so much, it feels like my body isn't even mine anymore. 

What is it?

She is

So beautiful, It is difficult to believe I get to get so close to her.

Oh Jesus, What do we do with ourselves question mark

Thanks for giving me way more than I can ever understand

!

It Is Good

YOU Are All Good....

Of course, I refer to Jae... or Jen.

Check the other journals. I guess [:

I just do not know what I really Feel or Am

Jen cuddled with me this evening for 2 hours.

I felt we had a spiritual connection.

That sounds so cliché. 

We just had really pleasurable times and good conversation.

She excites me...

I still plan to go see Billy for 2 hours. Maybe in the next few weeks.

I broke my streak of not ejaculating.

But I just wonder if Billy and I can have really fulfilling sex.

I just seem so fucked up

You know what I mean I guess.

I guess , well , we'll all figure it out . . .

Just feels freaking crazy.

I am getting ready to spend the week at mom's working at josh's house.

Things feel so unreal. so strange.

I just want some help, just to get through the day...

Gosh , it just feels so good, I cannot explain.

But you know specifically , in my life choices...

I just seem like things are Almost Perfect , but in the weirdest way....

I hope this gets through somehow to someone....

Hah this is quite dramatic I guess.

I took 10 mg of THC.  Pineapple express.

Si I'll probably wanna go to sleep in a minute.

Feel like I should eat something

I am really excited about life and the future

People are the best

And the trinity is even better

Amen. thank you all