hey

 i donnu what to do

i am obsessed with a lot

music

people

alcohol and the feeling it gives me

porn

Magic: the Gathering, and creating my own cards... so nerdy it hurts

Now playing is "In the Arms of Mrs' Mark of Cain"

I have no idea.

I just drank too much cooking sherry.

It is gross because it is salty.

I mixed it with water and canada dry zero sugar.

My head is beginning to feel bad.

I only had about a glassful, but i drank it too fast, because i was hiding from my mom.

She's in her room, napping or reading.

Now is " Biospheric Quiet "

by the Books

it is so very nice

beautiful , i say.

Sorry about my formatting. I have a short span of god...

Okay, all is joke.

I need my mom. Aaron, Andee, Alex, Kelly and a Good Psychotherpist, who I don't want to fuck silly...

sorry about that.

I got Bill Baird's Dead Man. It is Good.

Now is " Everything Is Now " by Belle and Sebastian

okay, hippie guy....

I really wanna go somewhere Very Different

and Change Myself. I with I could get the email I sent to Donna Rich when I was in Galveston.

Maybe I can.

Look out for that.

Oh yeah... I keep thinking of magic cards, like Spisk Ram.

My mom got a call, Spam Risk.

So i imagined a card.

I feel my imagination is severely stunted.

Maybe it's always been. or since i gained consciousness as a boy, like 10 years old. or older...

I am grateful that this alcohol seems to have helped me type, and think... some how.

The idea of becoming self aware, and other aware

as a full Kid

is so strange

it seems Unreal

How is this Possible

All these thoughts and feels...

I do knot know what todo.

Toto

Please come

See us Off

I love Thee

Lobes believe Us

We begin the Jaornui . . .

baa bye - 

- Science the Sheeep p

. . .

k

Later.

https://youtu.be/gjjxfKRjml0

hold me any way - wilco