Journal

My mom just went to shower. I got in the hot tub for a few minutes. I felt pretty good and relaxed after that. I almost cried. I really look forward to going to the beach in about a month. I want to go now.
I did not sleep much last night. I kept watching and listening to porn and ASMR and Sleep with Me.
We saw Ford vs. Ferrari. It is okay. It made me feel a few things i liked and did not like.
Caitriona is very pretty. i like bale... and damon
I want alcohol. Mom plans to see he siblibs [ ha [ :
her siblings on wednesday
and i want to go buy Knob Creek
The internet was slow or not at all... So i began to type this
It just came back, and Drinking at the Dam by Smog began to play. He is very nice
I saw John Green talk about gratitude journaling. I want to do that

I want to write more like well known writers
i want to know that i have the focus and intelligence to create expressive and meaningful sentences
for good reasons
to help people, or just myself
I spent a lot of time making a Vial Smasher deck on tappedout.net
I thought of making 2 more.
I should finish reading one of the books i started.

i took 2 aleve
i was standing at my computer a bit. my feet got sore
i ate 5 slices of pizza hut stuff crust last night
and 1 today
Mom wants to make PF chang's frozen honey chicken tonight
getting that was a mistake
i took another aleve , actually generic naproxem sodium
i'm gonna go pee outside now
i got a couple skeeter bites
i'm not doing that anymore unless i'm covered
i put on hydrocortisone
i put on Mahler's 1st symphony, Titan, on CD
i'm gonna look at magic cards even though i don't really care
i get a kind of obsessive
mom made a bowl of tin roof style iced cream
i made a coke flote and i am almost done drinking it
mom is watching Aerial Britain, Wales episode
we saw the steel plant that inspired Brazil

how weird and distant can We be . . ?

okay, i love you later
bye, Now.