Gabi is so beautiful I want her love in my life.

Wanna go back to Stockholm. 

... I need her to live in my life " , is what the voice input heard.

I sent her a revealing email which hints at how much I am into her, my wishing that I had tried to get as close to her as she would allow, highly intimate and infatuated. 

Intimated

I do not understand meanings

I am hot

I am kill

Swee swummer sweat beats drunk on music waves in humid hostel homelessnesses begin in fire water leave time Alone, I thank You, thanks.

So. I freely write. 

I am sleep deprived. 

I am using most of my will power to 

Not take my credit card and a 100 dollar bill

And drive to Genesis Spa, where last October

I paid a lot of money for a massage and for 2 Chinese women to help me ejaculate. 

That is probably the craziest thing I ever did.

I was drunk on white wine. Then I drove to Jen's apartment. 

O. I don't want to kill or hurt anyone, especially myself. It is too easy for me to stop paying attention to anything and everything, thus to stop caring 

I will get better. I'll listen to that song by Bleachers....

I been relistening to Pleased to Be Eaten by locust toy box. 

Y flux poly is Craazy. So good and nice, many aphex twin feeling

I really Love Cubonjo

DolphinSlide

                    - - I thank u, deepseek -

Is so Beautiful 

.

Well it All is

.

I hope I can help the grandchildren. Learn the lessons ... I learned the hard way.

On each of their 15th birthdays, I will give them a $100 bill. That's a very uncle y thing to do

All that we do is on a slippery slope ;

Even if you think you are being as careful as you can be, just try to be more 

Carefully. 

I will get a bus pass and ride the bus. I will buy a massage.

I don't know really

I will go through 

Though 

I am

Real

So....