I've been listening to Father Stephen Freeman,
Shame and Orthodoxy on Protecting Veil.
I had a convulsion,
I have a compulsion to watch my free cams,
Then I thought about analysing my mind and my life and writing it down. Or in this case speaking into the microphone of my telephone.
I was overcome with anxiety and conflict and contradiction.
And Grace and shame . . .
I've had quite a bit of caffeinated coffee, So I was like tingling all over and just waves of unknown energy filled my being.
It's funny what the voice input hears me say sometimes. Anxiety became 'thanks I ain't '
I said being twice and it said bean bean. (:
Anyway I did a minute ago, go to my free cams dot com and looked at women.
I really need to try to be myself and figure out . . . Something.
It is a need to exist, necessary for existing.
I'd like to go to Saint Elias on Sunday morning instead of going to Germany.
It would be better for everyone.
I must honor my mother and our promises.
This morning I heard Father John Behr talk about why the Church is our Mother.
I have been crying a lot this morning.
I drove home drunk last night.
I left work to buy wine and a diet root beer and jalapeƱo cheddar cheetos.
I moved a lot of lumber and got very tired and worn dumb... or down
This can be everything for me.
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Not really -- I just need to be Considerate and rational and live For everyone else
While taking care of myself.
I thought of 2 more novel titles in a trilogy, that began with Pass. They are Videos and Polyp.
The End for now
Love u, by bye
P s
Father stephen freeman that said some other stuff about being face to face and equal with god. I was drinking coffee and had to cover my mouth and
Cry laugh through my nose because it was so profound.
I realized i'm going through catharses. It's like the most painful bliss I have known.
It is a good pain; it's an out-of-body Eternal Gift.
later, I love you.
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