I have spent probably 20 years
in this house.
I am kind of tired. I came to Veda. Got in the hot tub, at 10:30 a.m. The sun shines directly on it. I drank a cup of coffee and some of my mom's cappuccino. We made sausage biscuits. Chelsea broke her tooth on an almond. They talked for a while.
I am watching, listening to GMM. It's really nice. The crew and all, of it.
I watched some podcasts yesterday. I loved the Office Hours with Eric Wareheim.
I cancelled library volunteering. I told 'them' it was because of sickness of family. But I just didn't want to think about getting a job, or talk to anyone.
Just did not want to.
I read almost 2 pages of a New Yorker article, "The Hospital". It's by a suicidal guy, going to the psych ER.
I did a little of Steve-O's Wild Ride with Bobby Lee. Now I am hearing Christina P, Where My Moms At?
They are all like water ducks in public parks.
Float the poo.
Washing the waste thru the rivers in America,
dead fish,
apples,
Death,
mycofilm
meals
deals
steals
and women
and men
bubbles and
Lover Land
red pink stringy meaty Hearts
Dry thin light tan dirty dirt
Lick the surface
Kiss deer
Lightning in the Sun ,
Melt to Dust,
thank you.
Mom put on The Wolf of Snow Hollow, it's really good,
i love Auld Lang Syne
just want to do nothing for months, no one asking me
no future.
No time, child, 9 years, tv, groceries, youtube, bed, sofa, snacks, los angeles, faces, laughing for no reason
crying for 16 relatives, 200 plus years, put together
many thousands of miles and forgetting
cars and graveyards
suns and grasses
dead leaves, warmth and winters
clothes and pillows
no memory, infinite memories
stretch out on the rug
all voices
once
all feeling
tiger belly 313 , really nice
rosebud baker, 315 seems even better
for me
i am nervous about being around Aaron tomorrow morning.
I just had some cucumber vod, poured the last of it. Made one with coco water and lemon soda.
. . . . Make it Back to fun . . . .
i am doing sober October. Beginning tomorrow, September 25th , 3 month to chris miss . . . .
no yoga for two days.. not sure why. i just got in the hot tub for the 2nd time today.
we're getting poppa murphy this eve...
and The End